Tuesday, February 26, 2013
A Shot to the New World Order - BVB essay
Recently
did a research essay type thing in English class. I wrote mine about BVB, and I
apologize to my English teacher but I cut out the internal citations for this
post because they look ridiculous haha. Sources are at the bottom. :)
The
Story of the Wild Ones
The prominence of rock music, not only in the United States but also worldwide, has
declined in the past twenty years. Even so, the passion of its fans keeps rock
and roll alive and burning. Inside the fire blazes a modern, five-piece band by
the name of Black Veil Brides. Heavily influenced by classic rock and punk
bands, Black Veil Brides have established their legacy beneath an eye catching
image of black leather and studs. Unfortunately, as it is in the way of neoteric society,
the band's rebellious appearance has disillusioned some from looking past the
early Mötley Crüe-esque image and actually listening to the
music. Black Veil Brides released their third studio album, Wretched and
Divine: the Story of the Wild Ones, worldwide on January 8, 2013, selling
42,000 copies in its first week of release - about twice as much as its
predecessor, Set the World on Fire. It's obvious that the band's fan base
is growing,yet they continue to receive criticism based on their aggressive
image. Notwithstanding this, Black Veil Brides guide a legion of dedicated fans
with unifying rock anthems composed of incredible combinations of
instrumentation, vocals, and lyrics.
Black Veil Brides currently consists of founder/lead
vocalist/lyricist Andy Biersack (penned "The Prophet" in
their second studio album), lead guitarist Jake Pitts ("The
Mourner"), rhythm guitarist/violinist Jinxx ("The
Mystic"), bassist/backing vocalist Ashley Purdy ("The
Deviant"),and drummer Christian "CC" Coma ("The
Destroyer"). The musical chemistry among the quintet is undeniable, sewn
together simply by talent and passion for music. Front man Andy Biersack had
been bullied frequently growing up for a multitude of things, most memorably
the way he dressed and the music he listened to. This triggered the vision of a
band who would speak for the unspoken. Eventually, his focus switched
predominantly to music and performing. Andy, according to his father (and
agreed upon by most anyone who has seen him perform live), has belonged onstage
from the very beginning. He was raised on classic rock and punk bands - the
Misfits, the Clash, Sex Pistols, KISS, Billy Idol, the Damned, Dead Boys - as
well as the performing aspect of punk-rock bands his father had been in.
Introverted, having been bullied for his appearance and labeled "emo"
in Catholic school, but charismatic and creative, Andy attended the School for
Creative and Performing Arts in Cincinnati , Ohio . Meanwhile, he formed a band, the
lineup of which changed most frequently during the three years it was based in Cincinnati (2006-2008). When Black Veil Brides
released its first music video, "Knives and Pens," in the summer of
2009, it consisted of only three members - Andy Biersack (then known
as Andy Six) on vocals, Chris Hollywood on guitar, and Sandra Alvarenga on
drums. After moving to Los Angeles he met (current Black Veil
Brides bassist) Ashley Purdy. The two collaborated over reconcilable ideas
of the band they wanted to be in. Both had been into music and art throughout
their lives and were heavily influenced by Mötley Crüe - Ashley
had been in a tribute band and Andy, under the alias"Andy Six,"
alluding to the Crüe's bassist Nikki Sixx, was inspired visually
by Mötley Crüe circa the 1980s. Ashley helped propel the
business behind the band and, with (then) Six, reformed Black Veil Brides. By
the end of 2009, the lineup had welcomed guitarists Jake Pitts and Jinxx.
The band released their debut album, We Stitch These Wounds, in 2010;
their first and only record with Sandra Alva, who joined Modern Day Escape
shortly after the tour that followed. The album consisted of eleven original
songs, plus an acoustic version of "Knives and Pens" and an
introduction by the name "The Outcasts (Call to Arms)" that
summarized the band's central theme: "This record is for the outcasts. The
following are stories of love, life, and never giving in. We are the Black Veil
Brides."
Guitarist Jake Pitts showcases his extraordinary guitar
skills by means of insane chord progressions and an impressive solo in nearly
every track. Jinxx (formerly of The Dreaming), being trained
significantly in classical music, provides phenomenal string additions to Black
Veil Brides' punk rock sound, while also managing the rhythm guitar. Jake
Pitts, who, like Andy, was bullied a lot, comes up with riffs that mirror the
melodies of the songs, something comparable to the abilities of the legendary
Mick Mars of Mötley Crüe. He and Jinxx continue to create
remarkably rock-solid rock riffs collectively, something that earned them the
Revolver Golden God Award for Best Guitarists in 2011. Their sheer talent will
undoubtedly earn the two recognition among legendary rock guitar duos like
James Hetfield and Kirk Hammett (Metallica), and Glenn Tipton and KK Downing
(Judas Priest). Outlining the rhythmic pulse and harmony of the music, bassist
Ashley Purdy was meant to be a rock star beyond question, having
energy on stage not unlike drummer Christian Coma (CC),who took Sandra Alva's
place in 2010. In a Revolver magazine interview,released in early 2012, when
asked, "What is a rock star?" vocalist Andy Biersack responded:
"There has to be an air of mystery, a reason why people want to know about
this person. I don't think there's a recipe, you just have to have passion,
talent, and a belief in yourself."
All five members of Black Veil Brides have undeniable
passion, talent, and belief in their band,even if they haven't always. When Jinxx and
Jake Pitts first joined the band,neither of them planned to stay long-term,
much less the three years (and counting) that they've been with one of the most
controversial rock bands in the world. CC had the opportunity to join Avenged
Sevenfold after their drummer, Jimmy "The Rev" Sullivan (RIP) passed
away in December of 2009. Instead,Andy Biersack's pure determination
and confidence convinced the three hesitant musicians that Black Veil Brides
would take over the world. (So far, so good.)Their fan base, commonly known as
the BVB Army, stands behind its heroes in defense of the Fallen
Angels. The Army is subject to constant ridicule in the name of mindless
popular culture, too often labeled "emo" or "Devil
worshipper" because of what people think they know about Black Veil
Brides. A lot of Black Veil Brides fans are or have been bullied, depressed,
and/or self-destructive in some way. For this reason, the claim is often made
that the music is what causes people to dress,act, and rebel the way they do,
when, actually, it is the exact opposite. The music does not cause the fans to
do what they do - self-injure, isolate themselves, act or dress in ways that
are not considered "normal," henceforth provoking a barrage of cruel
words from their peers - they cause the music to do what it does. Andy Biersack founded
the band around the belief that it gets better; that, no matter what, you are
not alone. Since its formation in 2006, Black Veil Brides has strongly
advocated against things like self-harm.Regarding this, Andy has stated,
"...find something that is a healthy and happy alternative to hurting
yourself...because, at the end of the day, you're only hurting the most
important person in the world, and that's you - and you don't want to hurt that
person." Although he admits that he has never fallen victim to the
pleading desire to harm oneself, Andy has been open about having been bullied
harshly in school and branded an outcast, which helped shape his vision of
Black Veil Brides.
On his MySpace page, Andy posted a story in autumn
of 2010 that conveyed the message he and his band try to spear, titled simply
"A Story From my Childhood." He emphasized his home life, growing up
an only child in Ohio ,where his parents, Chris and Amy Biersack,
taught him that their home was a "bubble" - no matter what happened in
their daily lives, once they were at home, as a family, nothing else mattered.
He told of something his mother did when he was about fourteen. The story is
told, by Andy, as follows:"My mother works for the children’s hospital in
Cincinnati, Ohio, and as apart of her job she is required to (like in many
jobs) attend yearly training seminars that take place outside of the office and
are meant to help shape the employees' work skills, social skills, etc. One of
the main draws of these seminars are the key note speakers - people that are
supposed experts in their field and are there to share their knowledge over the
course of an hour long speech and power point presentation (sound familiar? haha)
Anyway, one day my mother attended one of these speeches that was being done by
a middle aged man.He was your typical Midwestern 50-something year-old
man...lots of rhetoric...plenty of bias, you know haha. His speech was on
dealing with people in the workplace in a kind and respectful manner regardless
of the situation.He began to tell a story about he and his wife having dinner
with a few friends in an Applebee's, the story went as follows: '...and my
wife and I were sitting there and suddenly this kid walks in and I started to
bust out laughing, I mean he had the spiky pink and black hair...the makeup,
piercings...tattoos, just so silly...and my dear wife...she is more kind than
I...she hushed me and said 'Honey you shouldn't laugh...don't you know that boy
is just some mothers heart break?I mean LOOK at him.'
“Not another word had passed before my mother stood up and
firmly said 'That boy was my son.'
“'What? Oh I had no idea...I'm sorry,' the speaker said. My
mother then replied,
'No, you don't understand, that boy may not have been my
son, but what you just described...that boy represents my son, my beautiful son
whom I am so very proud of. He is the furthest thing from 'heartbreak;' he is
kind and talented and loving. He has a dream that he will follow and I will
support him every step of the way. He may not want to dress like you or your
wife sir, but I promise you that my boy and every other child who is a freak to
you is the apple of their mother’s eye.' She then walked away. She called
me and told me everything that had happened, and I (as I am now) began to tear
up and have a overwhelming rush of happiness and love come over me. I was loved
in a way I could never describe and even though I had always known my parents
loved me...I was hearing proof that no matter what...I was safe.
“The reason I wanted to share this with you is I feel as if
sometimes the outside world (and even for some of you your OWN families) try to
convince you that you are not loved, that you are not special. This is simply
untrue. Each and every one of us has a flame inside of us, a flame that no one
else could ever extinguish, and if you ever feel alone I want you to remember
this...as my mother and father did for me...Black Veil Brides will stand strong
for you, we will take on the worlds hatred so that you don't have to. Live your
life, listen to your music way too loud, be as crazy and as 'different' as you
want to be and always remember you're not alone."
After Andy published this story online, more people gained a
better understanding of why the band and its message mean so much to him. Black
Veil Brides makes listeners feel like they belong somewhere; people who are
cast aside, bullied, ignored, are reminded that they matter.
"Saviour," a slower song off their second studio album, is fragile
and pure, as is the Black Veil Brides army:
"I never meant to be the one who kept you from the
dark. But now I know my wounds are sewn because of who you are. I will take
this burden on and become the holy one. But remember I am human, and I'm bound
to sing this song.
“So hear my voice,remind you not to bleed. I am here, a
saviour will be there when you are feeling alone, oh. A saviour for all that
you do, so you live freely without their harm.
“So here I write my lullaby to all the lonely ones. Remember
as you learn to try to be the one you love so I can take this pen and teach you
how to live. What is left unsaid,the greatest gift I give..."
Black Veil Brides tell The Story of the Wild Ones, in which
we remember that our heroes are just as screwed up as we are. Neither Andy, nor
Ashley, or CC, or Jinxx, or Jake is perfect. As much as people idolize
them, they remain human, and no human is perfect. One of their more recent
songs, "Nobody's Hero," allows them to graciously step down from
the pedestal that the Army sometimes puts them on:
"I'll die fighting, inside me there's a fire that
burns. My life begins and ends without the faith that we learn. Save me from
the darkest places, save me from myself.
“I'm a loaded gun,an only son. But I'm nobody's hero.
I've come undone, I'm on the run. Yeah, I'm nobody's hero.
“To heal
your scars, I will give you everything I can. This war, of hearts, we will rise
again and take a stand. I can lead you to salvation, yet I am just a man.
“I'm a
loaded gun,an only son. But I'm nobody's hero. I've come undone, I'm
on the run. Yeah, I'm nobody's hero.
“This
martyr's cross gets too heavy to exist. And we feel the loss of the lives I
left to risk. I'm a loaded gun, an only son. But I'm nobody's hero.
I've come undone, I'm on the run. Yeah, I'm nobody's hero..."
The message of Black Veil Brides does not aim to immortalize
its emissaries above the legion of Black Veil Bridesmaids and Ushers. Rather,
it unifies an army of outcasts underneath a worldwide "bubble" that
Andy Biersack described via MySpace. The band and its fans are
essentially the same entity; in each one of us a Prophet, a Mourner, a Mystic,
a Destroyer, and a Deviant. Black Veil Brides wants you to be as crazy and as
different as you so desire and always remember that you're not alone; there
will always be five people from Los Angeles willing to stand strong for
you. It's all done for you.
The “Knives and Pens” music video on YouTube is followed by
hundreds of hateful comments towards the band and its fans. The strongest
argument behind those comments appears to be, “The lead singer dresses like a
fag, this music is for wannabe emo freaks and anyone who thinks
otherwise should just kill themselves.” The ones making such comments from
behind a computer screen are the same ones taping hateful signs to kids’
lockers and shoving them inside for being different, the ones who would have
been shot and killed at Columbine, and the ones who go so far as to tell an
innocent five year-old girl, who recently lost her father to a motorcycle
accident, to kill herself. (As ridiculous as it sounds, yes, unfortunately, it
happened. My heart goes out to Jolie and Kenadee Lucker. RIP
Mitch.) Most criticism cast upon Black Veil Brides is of this nature, so it is
not always justified. “Andy did nothing to anybody except wear black eyeliner
and a Misfits shirt. For that, he’d get shoved into a locker. For being himself
he’d have hate signs taped to his locker. And the teachers would tell him, you
know, you wouldn’t get all of that from the other kids at school if you didn’t
do this or that.They tried to put the blame on the victim.” (C. Biersack).
When their sophomore record, Set the World on Fire,
earned them a significant amount of attention, Black Veil Brides' reputation
grew with the increasing fan base from all genres of rock music, into an image
epitomizing glam rock itself. Critics presented the band as a new-age hair band
among the ranks of artists like Poison - not always in a bad way - and calling
them the next generation KISS. The band's image grew out of proportion to the
original vision of Black Veil Brides that [founder]Andy Biersack had
in mind. The forefathers of rock and roll - artists like Alice Cooper,
Sebastian Bach (Skid Row), Nikki Sixx (Mötley Crüe), and more
-praised Black Veil Brides, grateful that the heart and soul of rock and roll
was still alive. Even so, the typical glam-rock stars the media portrayed them
as were not what Andy Biersack initially pictured. The band's image
strayed out of his control, even when they released Rebels, an EP that
consisted of one new song "Coffin," covers of Billy Idol's
"Rebel Yell" and KISS's "Unholy," and the music
video for a song from Set the World on Fire, "Rebel Love
Song," six months after the release of their second album. Not long
after, Biersack cut off his famous long hair, a huge surprise to his
fans and band mates alike. As they were set to begin working on their next
album later that year, changing his hair was one thing the lead singer did to symbolically resurrect
his leadership over the band that he created. And, as most Black Veil Brides
fans know, symbolism plays a big role in their music.
The band's latest album is the most symbolic of all: a
rock-opera concept record called Wretched and Divine: the Story of the
Wild Ones, set in a futuristic, post-apocalyptic dystopia. This concept is
similar to that of the 2005 film (and the comic books it was based on) V
for Vendetta. (The movie contains a reference to black veil brides, which
sparked the idea for the name of the band. It's one of Andy's favorite movies.)
The record centers around a group of rebels - "the Wild Ones" - who
live under the reign of a totalitarian theocracy known as F.E.A.R. (For Every
and All Religion). F.E.A.R. exists to rule in the name of God (supposedly),
thereby censoring all creativity and individuality, something the Wild Ones
seek to rebel against. William Control provides the voice of F.E.A.R. in
several "transmissions" throughout the album, which tie the story
together. Other artists lent their voices to this record, as well. Juliet Simms -
Andy's girlfriend, of Automatic Loveletter, and previously a contestant on
The Voice - appears on the heart-wrenching track titled "Lost It
All," along with Roberta Freeman, who provides additional vocals for Guns
n Roses. Bert McCracken of The Used is also featured, in "Days
Are Numbered." The story of political and social upheaval parallels the
life (worth living) as an outcast, with outstanding music to carry it. The
tenth track, "Overture," reminds us of the incredible talent possessed
by Black Veil Brides' rhythm guitarist and violinist, Jinxx. It mimics the anthemic rock
melodies of four songs that preceded it on the record - "I Am
Bulletproof," "New Years Day,""We Don't Belong," and
"Resurrect the Sun" - in polyphony. The classical twist
that the Mystic brings to the band is one of many things that set Black Veil
Brides apart from the majority of bands today. Of course, all five members were
born to stand out.
It's unlikely that you will hear Black Veil Brides songs
played on the radio or see them perform at the American Music Awards. Despite
the major lack of air space given to this band, Wretched and Divine: the
Story of the Wild Ones debuted at No. 7 on the Billboard 200 chart the
week of January 26, 2013 . Even though they aren't invited to
perform at awards ceremonies like the AMAs or the Grammys, they
are constantly selling out venues on their current Church of the Wild Ones
Tour. How did a band that you never hear on the radio manage to release a top
ten record, and sell more tickets in less time than pop artists whose shelves
are stacked with American Music and Grammy Awards? The passion of rock and roll
fans. People like music they can relate to, and they like songs they can
singalong with. Popular music today all sounds the same; you can turn on the
radio and hear the same song over and over again about wanting money, making
money, sex, spending money, sex, sex, more money, sex, weed, sex, and
alcohol. Most songs played on popular radio stations in the United States are
corporate manufactured to appeal to the impressionable minds of the nation's
youth, and the “artists” who represent them get fame and fortune in turn. In
the words of Nikki Sixx, “Remember there is no music business without
music. There seems to be a misunderstanding that we need them. We don’t need
them, they need us…Manifest your future. It’s yours for the making, not theirs
for the taking." The popular music industry puts out the fire, telling you
that the right thing to do is be just like everyone else. No one will like you
if you're different. Walk on the pavement. Take notes. Work at a fast food
restaurant. Obey the law. Go to college. Get a boring job. Get married. Reproduce.
Clip leather wings. Do so in whatever manner your blind eyes see fit, every day
until you die. Repeat.
The songs that Black Veil Brides sings encourage you to do
things not because it will be popular, but because you believe you should. They
pour their hearts, souls, and rock and roll into their music so that you can
rejoice in being different. You may be condemned for being a little weird, and
that's okay, because "those who mind don't matter, and those who matter
don't mind." (Unknown)
~
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~
Saturday, February 23, 2013
My darkest desire.
I just listened to Black Veil Brides in chronological order (minus the first EP)...We Stitch These Wounds, then Set the World on Fire, then Rebels, then Wretched and Divine. Annnd then I listened to "Beautiful Remains" - from We Stitch These Wounds - annnd then "I Am Bulletproof" - from Wretched and Divine, back to back.
I can't
Like I literally can not.
I don't even...omfg. I CAN'T. I JUST
I CANNOT.
I CAN NOT EXPRESS MY...
some sort of positive feeling?...towards Black Veil Brides, I just omfg. I can't put into words how grateful I am. Buuut I guess I can try..ok.
This band is my livelihood. They keep my heart beating. I can't tell you how many times I've sat alone in my room, silently weeping, in the dead of night, with a razor blade in my hand listening to Black Veil Brides. Summer of 2011 was the worst. In addition to my self-harming habit spiraling out of control, I also started drinking sometime in June or July. Every night, drink, puke, cut. Drink, puke, cut. Drink, puke, cut. I had these awful nightmares...lots of fire, sharp things, screaming, mirrors (I hated looking in the mirror), blood, and people laughing at me...I didn't sleep very much because I was trying to avoid them. After a few days awake, though, I'd bash myself to sleep, so the nightmares weren't so bad. I'd wake up with scratches and bruises everywhere, but the nightmares weren't too bad.
Black Veil Brides released their second studio album, Set the World on Fire, June 14, 2011. My favorite song, immediately, was "Ritual:"
"Praying for what your heart brings
Thoughts of escape and bloodshot eyes
You're barely sleeping, no longer dreaming
Now what you do to feel alive
Rise up and celebrate your life
We're not alone in our ritual
Sing for what you feel inside
Becoming one with our ritual
Singing songs of the old days
Try to remember what's gone by
Stronger in new ways
Don't care what they say,
This is your life
It's time to rejoice
Rise up and celebrate your life
We're not alone in our ritual
Sing for what you feel inside
Becoming one with our ritual
Our destiny is what we learned
Together wanting something more
Their misery and demons burn
A feeling that's worth fighting for
Rise up and celebrate your life
We're not alone in our ritual
Sing for what you feel inside
Becoming one with our ritual
Rise up and celebrate your life
We're not alone in our ritual
Sing for what you feel inside
Becoming one with our ritual"
Thoughts of escape and bloodshot eyes.
Barely sleeping.
No longer dreaming.
What I did to feel alive.
Summer 2011 in a nutshell...Hell.
The last few plucks of the guitar strings at the end of "Ritual" absolutely shattered me. In a good way, if that makes sense. I don't know. It was consonant in a very strange kind of way...compared to the dissonant mess my life was at the time. Even though the chord itself wasn't like, extremely intricate or difficult to play, it felt like they were tugging at my heart strings. It made me feel...um. It just made me feel. It was (and still is) an incredible alternative to what I usually did to make myself feel again. Cutcutcutcutcut. Anyone else struggling with self-injury knows what I mean...the numbness that consumes you...it's like, there's so much pain you're dealing with. Humans aren't wired to handle so much pain at one time. There's so much emotional pain wrapping its cold, calloused hands around your neck that sometimes you can't even feel it. You know it's there, it's just numb. When you harm yourself, though, you have control over the pain you're feeling. You'd rather feel pain than nothing at all.
If I hadn't been as self-destructive as I was at the time, I know it wouldn't have had that effect on me. But I'm grateful that it did.
When I say that Black Veil Brides saved my life, I mean it.
That's why I get so pissed off when people hate on them for no good reason. Like, I don't care if you don't like their music. I do care, though, if you think they're KISS-wannabe faggots.
I mean, I can see why they're always being compared to KISS. It's a theatrical thing - the makeup and whatnot. And obviously, they're both rock bands. I get it, I'm not blind. Haha. Saying that they're a wannabe KISS, though...no. The lyrical aspects of those two bands are completely different. People will see that their album is titled "Set the World on Fire" and think "'Flaming youth will set the world on fire' omg dirty rotten thieves."
Black Veil Brides were influenced, to a certain extent, by KISS. They are not, however, aspiring to be KISS; they're aspiring to be Black Veil Brides.
And I've heard countless times from people at school - who are aware of my previous self-injuring "habit" - that Black Veil Brides are the reason I've hurt myself. I wore rubber bracelets with their name/logo on them every day and they covered up most of my scars. Sometimes, during school, I'd look at my arm and think, "I hate these fucking scars. I hate these illustrations of weakness and regret. I hate myself." Next to them, though, would always be the simple promise that I wasn't alone. It sounds lame, but it's true.
I can say with sincerity that Black Veil Brides makes me feel like I belong somewhere.
Soooooooo in conclusion...
Andy Biersack
Ashley Purdy
Jake Pitts
Jinxx
CC
Thank you for existing.
I can't
Like I literally can not.
I don't even...omfg. I CAN'T. I JUST
I CANNOT.
I CAN NOT EXPRESS MY...
some sort of positive feeling?...towards Black Veil Brides, I just omfg. I can't put into words how grateful I am. Buuut I guess I can try..ok.
This band is my livelihood. They keep my heart beating. I can't tell you how many times I've sat alone in my room, silently weeping, in the dead of night, with a razor blade in my hand listening to Black Veil Brides. Summer of 2011 was the worst. In addition to my self-harming habit spiraling out of control, I also started drinking sometime in June or July. Every night, drink, puke, cut. Drink, puke, cut. Drink, puke, cut. I had these awful nightmares...lots of fire, sharp things, screaming, mirrors (I hated looking in the mirror), blood, and people laughing at me...I didn't sleep very much because I was trying to avoid them. After a few days awake, though, I'd bash myself to sleep, so the nightmares weren't so bad. I'd wake up with scratches and bruises everywhere, but the nightmares weren't too bad.
Black Veil Brides released their second studio album, Set the World on Fire, June 14, 2011. My favorite song, immediately, was "Ritual:"
"Praying for what your heart brings
Thoughts of escape and bloodshot eyes
You're barely sleeping, no longer dreaming
Now what you do to feel alive
Rise up and celebrate your life
We're not alone in our ritual
Sing for what you feel inside
Becoming one with our ritual
Singing songs of the old days
Try to remember what's gone by
Stronger in new ways
Don't care what they say,
This is your life
It's time to rejoice
Rise up and celebrate your life
We're not alone in our ritual
Sing for what you feel inside
Becoming one with our ritual
Our destiny is what we learned
Together wanting something more
Their misery and demons burn
A feeling that's worth fighting for
Rise up and celebrate your life
We're not alone in our ritual
Sing for what you feel inside
Becoming one with our ritual
Rise up and celebrate your life
We're not alone in our ritual
Sing for what you feel inside
Becoming one with our ritual"
Thoughts of escape and bloodshot eyes.
Barely sleeping.
No longer dreaming.
What I did to feel alive.
Summer 2011 in a nutshell...Hell.
The last few plucks of the guitar strings at the end of "Ritual" absolutely shattered me. In a good way, if that makes sense. I don't know. It was consonant in a very strange kind of way...compared to the dissonant mess my life was at the time. Even though the chord itself wasn't like, extremely intricate or difficult to play, it felt like they were tugging at my heart strings. It made me feel...um. It just made me feel. It was (and still is) an incredible alternative to what I usually did to make myself feel again. Cutcutcutcutcut. Anyone else struggling with self-injury knows what I mean...the numbness that consumes you...it's like, there's so much pain you're dealing with. Humans aren't wired to handle so much pain at one time. There's so much emotional pain wrapping its cold, calloused hands around your neck that sometimes you can't even feel it. You know it's there, it's just numb. When you harm yourself, though, you have control over the pain you're feeling. You'd rather feel pain than nothing at all.
If I hadn't been as self-destructive as I was at the time, I know it wouldn't have had that effect on me. But I'm grateful that it did.
When I say that Black Veil Brides saved my life, I mean it.
That's why I get so pissed off when people hate on them for no good reason. Like, I don't care if you don't like their music. I do care, though, if you think they're KISS-wannabe faggots.
I mean, I can see why they're always being compared to KISS. It's a theatrical thing - the makeup and whatnot. And obviously, they're both rock bands. I get it, I'm not blind. Haha. Saying that they're a wannabe KISS, though...no. The lyrical aspects of those two bands are completely different. People will see that their album is titled "Set the World on Fire" and think "'Flaming youth will set the world on fire' omg dirty rotten thieves."
Black Veil Brides were influenced, to a certain extent, by KISS. They are not, however, aspiring to be KISS; they're aspiring to be Black Veil Brides.
And I've heard countless times from people at school - who are aware of my previous self-injuring "habit" - that Black Veil Brides are the reason I've hurt myself. I wore rubber bracelets with their name/logo on them every day and they covered up most of my scars. Sometimes, during school, I'd look at my arm and think, "I hate these fucking scars. I hate these illustrations of weakness and regret. I hate myself." Next to them, though, would always be the simple promise that I wasn't alone. It sounds lame, but it's true.
I can say with sincerity that Black Veil Brides makes me feel like I belong somewhere.
Soooooooo in conclusion...
Andy Biersack
Ashley Purdy
Jake Pitts
Jinxx
CC
Thank you for existing.
Nice boys don't play rock and roll.
I miss Guns n Roses. Classic Guns n Roses. Axl, Duff, Steven, Slash, and Izzy. I mean, I love Axl Rose. I also love Duff McKagan, Steven Adler, Slash, and Izzy Stradlin. The musical chemistry between those guys was undeniable. All b.s. aside, I wonder what it would sound like if those dudes got together today.
Think the Appetite for Destruction era, not this Chinese Democracy thing. Axl's one of the most talented singers to ever live, and the fact that he's the only founding member still in the band doesn't change that. Guns n Roses still plays shows - they don't, like, tour worldwide like Slash does with Myles Kennedy and the Conspirators. But they still play shows, and people still buy tickets. I don't know how they sound live - because I live in St. Louis and St. Louis and Axl Rose don't mix. haha - so I can't write a review comparing classic GnR to current GnR. I can say with certainty that Slash is amazing live (The Pageant gig last summer - best night of my life) but that's beside the point.
People selling out the venues Guns n Roses play today, I think, are the same people that were selling out venues to see them play twenty, twenty-five years ago. Everything about Axl Rose just screams "rock star." Even if you think he's an asshole, you can't deny his talent.
That's another thing I can't confirm or deny... whether or not he's as much of a psycho as people say he is... because the most I know is in books and interviews, told from the points of view of people who've worked with him over the years. So, "Is Axl psychotic?" Short answer, "Yes, if..." Long answer, "No, but..."
There's a lot of speculation over why he is the way he is. I'm not a psychologist (yet), but I think there is no genius without a little insanity.
Think the Appetite for Destruction era, not this Chinese Democracy thing. Axl's one of the most talented singers to ever live, and the fact that he's the only founding member still in the band doesn't change that. Guns n Roses still plays shows - they don't, like, tour worldwide like Slash does with Myles Kennedy and the Conspirators. But they still play shows, and people still buy tickets. I don't know how they sound live - because I live in St. Louis and St. Louis and Axl Rose don't mix. haha - so I can't write a review comparing classic GnR to current GnR. I can say with certainty that Slash is amazing live (The Pageant gig last summer - best night of my life) but that's beside the point.
People selling out the venues Guns n Roses play today, I think, are the same people that were selling out venues to see them play twenty, twenty-five years ago. Everything about Axl Rose just screams "rock star." Even if you think he's an asshole, you can't deny his talent.
That's another thing I can't confirm or deny... whether or not he's as much of a psycho as people say he is... because the most I know is in books and interviews, told from the points of view of people who've worked with him over the years. So, "Is Axl psychotic?" Short answer, "Yes, if..." Long answer, "No, but..."
There's a lot of speculation over why he is the way he is. I'm not a psychologist (yet), but I think there is no genius without a little insanity.
Thursday, February 21, 2013
We Salute You.
Are you familiar with Kurt Cobain's "I Like" list? If not, look it up. Anyway, here's mine.
I Like...
I Like...
- Music
- Art
- Tattoos
- Intelligence
- Psychology
- Literature
- Philosophy
- Photography
More specifically, I Love...
- Rock and roll
- Studying mental health
- Traveling
- Writing
- Black Veil Brides
- The messed up minds of serial killers
- Horror films
- Family Guy
- Slash
- Nikki Sixx
- Steven Tyler
- Marilyn Manson
- The color red
- Symbolism
Did I mention that I love rock and roll? I do, quite a lot, as my heart beats in time with "Juke Box Hero."
This blog, in particular, is devoted to rock and roll, almost as much as I am. Sing with me.
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